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Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Capture Your Grief days 4-7

I do realize that I'm behind, I wasn't feeling well this weekend and I had a super busy weekend anyways.

So Day 4 and 5 to me go together

Day 4: Most treasured item, something you have that relates you do your baby and Day 5: Memorial, something you have done in memory of your child.  I say to me both things are the quilt I had made from his clothing.  It was made in memory of him and it is the thing I cling to and use everyday.  It gives me something to snuggle when he is not there to snuggle with.




Day 6: what not to say, things people have said to you that were not appropriate.  Honestly I can think of nothing to put here. Everyone has been kind and thoughtful.  I guess if there were inappropriate things said I blocked them out.  No picture for this one, just words.

 Day 7:what to say, Things said to you that brought you great comfort.  The one thing that hit my heart in an amazing way and brought me a new sense of comfort about the whole situation was from my cousin.  She lost a child while pregnant and she told me " Branson had something special about him and I like to think that God put him in such an amazing family to keep him smiling because he knew he had to take him early and wanted every moment to be a happy one. He chose you Britni because you are loving and caring and passionate. He chose you because you could take care of his angel before he was called home. Stetson and Kinlee will always remember their brother and how much you all loved him and how special he was." Still brings me comfort to hear these words.  I love it and I love her for saying them.

Thursday, October 4, 2012

October: Capture Your Grief photograph challenge.

October is pregnancy and infant loss awareness and although I'm not quite sure I fit into that category it was still and childloss so to me it counts.  There is a photograph challenge for the month of October.  31 days and 31 photographs to "Capture Your Grief" and show it through images.  I'm a few days late starting in on this, but I plan on doing this.  Here is the originating website: http://carlymarieprojectheal.com/2012/09/capture-your-grief-this-october-2012-for-pregnancy-infant-loss-awareness-month.html

So this is me getting caught up with Days 1-3.

Day 1: Sunrise

This means more to me than just the sun coming up...this means my kids also...they are my sunrise every morning.



Day 2:

Before Loss Self Portrait  A photo of me before my loss.  This photo was take the weekend before Branson passed away....one of my last happy memories before my life fell apart.




Day 3:

Post Loss Self Portrait.  Taken a week or so after he passed away.  Trying to figure out my new normal...my new me.

I will post a new blog later tonight about Day 4.
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